(c) Joanna Armendez

It dawned on me that I would never have this moment again at least after a good one calendar year.

I realized that I was very close to departing and leaving someone I love so dearly behind, AGAIN.

I wished that it were just easy. That I can freeze the moment, stay right there or better yet just take you where I would be for the next year of my life.

I smiled but my heart ached knowing the facts would be soon faced.

I yelled to mask the fear I felt and the procrastination that settled in.

What do you do when you know you are dying?

That was how it felt.

I was like a dying child in need of all the attention. I needed your attention. I wanted your attention.   

I needed to make moments to bring with me.

I wondered when am I going to feel genuine happiness again. Like this.

I want you back.

I need you here.

Now.