Feeling my feelings

Today it just occurred to me that people will never be able to experience Eden the way babies not born during the pandemic were experienced. Her first year of life seems to be in captivity. She’s like one of the hostages of the pandemic. That made me sad. I felt sad because it seems that […]

Letting Go..

…is just another way to sayI’ll always love you so Yes that’s the Barry Manilow song. But I am using this line for Elon. Because yesterday he did a beginner trial for basketball kids. It was 6-7 in the evening and that was also Eden’s bedtime. I had to miss it (let go) although I […]

Do you ever ask whose kid is this person?

No? Because I do. Lately, whenever I am driving and my son is in his seemingly small carseat, I look from the mirror and wonder whose kid is this person seated in the back seat of my car? Sometimes I catch a glimpse of him while sleeping all long limbs like his dad’s and I […]

My Love

Elon, you are five today. I will always say this but I could not believe it. I wouldn’t say the time flew past me because I have been with you every day of those 5 years. I have cherished every single day even those ones that were not the best. We were never away from […]

It’s October

It’s October Leaves are falling It’s orange, red and yellow I see The wind has turned bitter But the smell is crisp It’s when I think of you most Your whole you that I feel Your hands busy Your mind busier Your love sometimes too much for me Without you I would neither want This […]

Three things I am grateful for

The past two weeks that we’ve all been staying home due to the pandemic has been quite… interesting. We have a full house with myself, Elon and Edward. I can’t tell you that I’m loving every second of it. There are times that by the end of the day, I would feel defeated, guilty and […]