One Sweet Morning 

The first morning when you woke up without crying and you smiled at me as if to say good morning. I thought you actually knew who I was. The smile was not some random smile related to gas anymore like the first few months. The smile meant something and was an assigned emotion. I remember picking you up from your crib to our bed. Your dad was still sleeping but I was already awake and then you opened your eyes, and then you recognize that I was not just your source of food. You knew I was family. I have never seen someone’s eyes so full of joy and admiration as if I was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. Despite my morning face, my morning breath, my disheveled hair, you looked at me and you smiled and you made me feel I am prettier than Kate Middleton and Princess Diana combined. Your dad never made me feel that way, but you did – with one big smile in that one winter morning at 6AM.

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Elon is 4 months! 

  Elon has been baptized as a Roman Catholic  Elon is 20 lbs and 70 cm Elon can self soothe by sucking on his whole fist or thumb  Elon can put  himself to sleep Elon is able to entertain himself Elon wears size 4 diapers Elon wears 9-12 months baby’s clothes; 12-24 months in some […]

Elon is 3 months!

  Elon is 3 months  Elon has a longer playtime Elon sleeps longer at night and more frequent shorter span of time during the day Elon is 19lbs and 65 cm long  Elon smiles and coos a lot Elon loves bath time  Elon had reverse roll over Elon loves to sleep now in his crib […]

Latching on to you

Since I will be on house arrest this week — Elon and I had the fever — I would like to write about some things that I have been meaning to write about for so long now. For a while, I have been thinking how to share my breastfeeding journey. I have a draft of […]

Motherhood x2

Let me start not with “the woman I find most beautiful…” Too cliche. Beauty is relative. But cuteness is absolute. My mom is the cutest. Period. No questions. She is the standard when it comes to cuteness. Many people have already told me that Elon looks like my mother. And I totally agree most of […]

Follow The Sun 

I love watching movies since they are, most of the time, make believe. Watching seems to offer an alternate reality during the times that I might need one.  I have Kill Bill as my favorite movie of all time. I have loved badass female characters cause when I watch them, it makes me feel empowered […]

To More Poutines and Caramel Sundaes 

Edward,  You probably think this letter for our anniversary is overrated. It is true. I have written too much about you on this blog that I even have a category named “Edwards” just to store all posts about you. But I also admit that I have neglected you since Elon was born. As I write […]

A Year In Toronto

    Happy one year in Toronto, Edward!   When you came to Toronto for good to be with me, I did not think how you would like it. I was too selfish to think about that. I only thought: I want you here whether you would come to like it or not. But seeing […]

Rainbows and Butterflies (and a little rain)

It will be almost 60 days since Elon was born. Since day one, I have been with him 24/7. During the times that I am awake from when he was born, I looked at him, kissed him, held him, and cared for him. The rest of the times, that I am asleep, I dreamt about […]